I apologize if the following journal entry is a bit lame and whiny but I just need some avenue to let out some thoughts.
I've been feeling super discouraged lately.
Since I learned how to crochet last summer, I have fallen in love with the craft and that I get to meld it with my other love, Pokémon. I am also thrilled at how surprised and happy it makes people, whether they are friends or strangers, when they see the critters that I've made.
But there are a few things that have really put a damper on my creativity and motivation. Under the pressure of many people telling me that I should sell them, I created an Etsy shop. While I have had several satisfied customers, some experiences have really kicked my ass. There have been some hurtful criticisms from some customers that I just don't need in my life.
For my amigurumi, even though what I make is inspired by my favorite Pokémon, they're not always the most accurate representations. I began taking commissions here and there and for more complex orders, I promised only to be able to try and then I would let the customer decide if they would still like to buy it. Many customers were nice about it but I started to lose the joy in what I was doing. With these commissions came expectations that I was afraid I could not fulfill.
The reason I finally got off my ass and made the Etsy shop was when I was sitting in a cafe where a child came by with her mom and asked if she could buy the Chespin that I made. I didn't charge much because seeing how happy it made the girl was the most rewarding feeling in the world. To know that there's a 3 year old kid that has something one-of-a-kind that will be played with and loved as a childhood heirloom is the most I could ask for. That's what I wanted every sale I made to feel like.
I wish I could say that it has been that awesome since I've started selling on Etsy. I'm just bummed out that some people don't seem to understand that making these things takes a lot of time and effort because I'm coming up with my own patterns and sometimes I am not skilled enough to please them.
I'm going to have to take a break. I want to make Pokémon because it makes me happy. Instead I had started doing it to try and please others who don't appreciate it at all.